itz amazing...heard dis frm somewhere...every 2sec dere's a new blogger in dis world! so as i finish dis sentence a few new bloggers whld hav popped out! welcome 2 e world of bloggin! =)

every1's like stressed up nw cramping every hr dat their eyes can open 2 muggg...considering datz itz a lvls...e most impt exam in our lives up 2 dis date..but im like nt takin it v seriously...hav not gottten down 2 SERIOUS studyin..argh..realli nid e motivation..itz scary hw relaxed im am...hmm..

mon played e whole dae...after e tough human geog test...went out wif jas gh n zr 2 plae again...den so took up e whole dae n den go hm din wanna study anymore...nt gonna plae anymore liaoz until after As...

todae oso went out...wif mi cousin who juz flew over frm switzerland yest n flying off 2 brisbane tml...so took him ard orchard..mum treated us 2 a nice seafood dinner! haha...crabs n stingray v yummy..den played pool wif him after dat..

mi cousin's a mixed blood...malaysian-australian mix...so he's a handsome 22 yr old chap..after his grade 10(jc ovr here)..he flew by himself 2 switzerland for an apprenticeship 2 become a chef...den he worked his wae up 2 bcome e head chef of sumthing by nw..he gets gd pay n save e money 2 travel ard e world...everytime he comes here he tells me bout his trips..realli v v cool...like he's been on backpacking 2 egypt..e alps..brunei..vietnam..london...caribbeans...itz realli nice 2 hav a job ur passionate in n use e money u earn to travel ard e world..n he's gonna quit e current job 2 get a higher pay by going 2 antartica 2 become a chef dere...cmon...datz realli v v COOL! literally...yea...i wish i can b like him when im 22...

we realli set out e path we r takin at dis tender age of 18...or 21...cuz wad we study iz most likely gonna mean wad we r doin in future..e most impt thing iz e passion for e job we're gonna tk..pay shld b secondary...2 me at least...n datz wad mi cous did..go for his passion n nv turn bac..somehw our society is rigid..we tend 2 follow everyone else..n datz a dangerous thing...so i guess all of us must by nw hav mapped out future plans...for me i either become a chef...a dj..a pilot..an anchor..some job in e financial sector...or a journalist..

hmm...we exchanged lotsa views n i mus sae he is realli mature in his tinking...we even talked bout gals...like he said in e european context while i did in e asian context..haha..guy's talk...so a had a mini round e world trip by tokin 2 him..

yayyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! im so excited bout goin overseas after a lvls...most likely goin 2 japan wif family n den aus wif frens...but e aus trip still n confirmed cuz difficult 2 get tix 2 b bac by xmas..yeepp...realli troubled these daes cuz grad nite n e hols wif family clashes..wanna go for grad nite...but it clashes...hopefully e flight can b changed 2 after grad..

e rain todae was freaky...it suddenly became v bright den rain poured down...but it was a great sight..

oh man...so many things lined up after a lvls...carn wait for it 2 b over..

JaCky blogged on 10:47 PM

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hahaz! hahaz! hahahaz! finally 18 liaoz...e laz member in e clique's datz 18..but nvm...im 18 nw!! had a great bdae...dere's 1 thing common among clique members...n dat iz we all hav great bdae's!!!!! =)

b4 mi bdae was open dae...well...it wasnt as fun as laz yr cuz i aint in sc anymore...rem laz yr ran ard...welcoming ppl...seeing myself in those sec4 ppl...den looked at presentations at e diff stations..plae bball all dat...dis yr was diff cuz we got no duties...so zr ivan alex n me juz went ard looking for soccer 2 plae n oso slacked ard..den played in e sc rm...ahh...sc rm iz a place full of memories for me...times dere spent playin...eating...sleeping...sleeping....slacking... ponning..chatting...singing..like a small lil home in sch..n yup...anyway..went hm early..din hav dinner wif e rest cuz mum's dinner was waiting at hm!! realli hav 2 thank mum for e realli sumptuous dinner..cooked handmade ban mian wif alot alot of liao den oso ginko barley dessert...ate till so full dat nite...wad a nice bdae pres frm mum! den she also got me a swatch watch...nice! after 12am den we had dis mango cake..yummy...thought e bez part was e dinner...been like almost a yr since i laz had home cooked food...yeapz...=)

went out wif e clique on mi bdae!! met at orchard mrt at 3.30 but i was late as usual...but turned out dat im e earliest...every1 else was later den me..wahhaa...datz a gd change...for me 2 b earliest..den alex came abit after i reached..so we went 2 borders 2 read mag..almost all e mags dere can read 1...quite cool...den as usual alex headed for e fhm 1st...den yunhui came...den e rest...den we went 2 cini buy tix for 40 yr old virgin...we had a quick dinner at marche..den went for e movie..haha...mi 1st m18 movie! i guess i was e youngest person in e cinema at dat time...movie wasnt too bad..realli farnie at some parts..feels so weird 2 b watchin dis kinda movie den yunhui was bside me...hmm..jansen n shufang joined us after e movie n surprised ivan n me wif a choc bdae cake..it wasnt a v nice experience though memorable cuz dey smashed e choc cake into our faces...hahaz...wasted e nice cake...

we den wenta clarke quay for a drink...we stood juz right below e reverse bungee thingy n saw ppl takin e ride..looks realli cool i tink but tink too ex le...so we walked ard searching for a bar...itz sat's nite out n like almost all e bars n pubs r filled...saw dis forbidden city which looked realli happenin frm e outside..muz go dere after a lvls...but 1st chinablack invited by fiz! den we settled down at dis spanish bar which i thought was quite nice..e setting n atmosphere v relaxing...like dim orange lights wif candles givin a v spanish feel....duhz...had dis long island ice tea...alex had sex on e beach...i mean e drink...haha..wad a name..mi cocktail was v nice i though...strong but nt too strong..den we played truth n truth dere...haha...fancy playin dis kinda game when we're 18! at a bar! but we're all children in our hearts i tink...haha..took cab hm wif yunhui as usual..n fell aslp v easily when i reached hm..zzZz..

after 2 daes of slackness...wanted 2 study on sunday but i was juz overwhelmed by slackness...totally..dad treated me 2 a seafood dinner for present! ate quite alot of chilli crabs...simply heavenly...=)..

after 3 daes of slackness...wanted 2 study on monday but had 2 get presents for e class n clique!!! so roys zr n me went 2 parkwae 2 shop for our pres for e clique...i printed lotsa photos as i wanted 2 giv e clique a photo frame wif a pic of e clique so dey can place bside their bed or on their study table so their reminded of e clique everytime! wahhaa..den got kinder surprise n choc bars for 30/04! roys got engraved pendant while zr got dis cute finger keychains....each clique got a special handsign...den we all rushed hm 2 do our personalised msg for e clique...wrote till 2.30am n almost cldnt wake up e nxt dae..

it was nice seeing e clique passing pres 2 one another....dat moment was kinda nice...itz realli nice distributing e chocs 2 e class...den seeing smiles when dey got e kinder surprise..helped dem got in touch wif their inner child!! guess dat was e laz thing dat i can do for e class..dere will nv b another 30/04...e farewell concert was nt too bad but wasnt great..e farewell gift was nt as gd as xpected..den e clique took pics! on top of zirui's coursework...literally...den had went 2 meet e clazz for lunch...actually dere was onli shaowen terence n huimin...haha...it was reali nice of dem 2 get me a engraved key chain...thnx! had lunch at marche...n at e same place as sat summore...but lunch items r abit different..so was equally yummy...e farnie thing was dat me n yunhui went 2 orchard 2gether 2 join our own classes denn when it ended we went hm 2gether..dotz...was dead tired when i got hm but still dragged myself out 2 meet gh jas n zr dey all for lan...was still fun in e end though..

studied hard for e phy geog mock test these past few daes...had 2 sae e test was actually more difficult den promos...hope i dun flunk dis one..

i hav 2 eat mi words...cuz i ponned sch again laz wed...but regretted cuz e clique kinda celebrated ivan's bdae...gonna learn 2 realli realli resist sleeeeepppp...

sch's over..no more...gone...

JaCky blogged on 11:10 PM

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u noe...itz e laz wk of sch......din u realise dat? hmm..i guess most of us r u busy mugging dat we din realise..hey..laz week of sch already...laz wk of sch ever in ur whole life..no more such lessons anymore...goin 2 U is a totally different thing by den enter society liaoz...n i guess many of us r ponning sch..im guilty of dat too laz wed..but i shant pon anymore...simply bcuz dis IS the laz wk of sch...i rem seniors telling me...muz treasure e remaining daes of ur JC life...cuz if u dun...u'll regret not treasuring it when u leave e sch...hey...e same thing alwaes happens doesnt it?....i realli enjoy chattin wif mi class nw..n i had fun laz wk goin 2 ssc wif roys n F4...juz gonna make full use of e remaining daes here..

it will b nice if can tk lotsa pics wif e class dis mondae n tues...n hope clique staes bac after sch n we can tk pics n juz slack ard sch or somethin.....rem doin dat durin e laz dae on sec4 n it was pretty sad...like u noe...e pictures all of us smilin but den we noe dat we r gonna part ways..haha...quite sad i tink...e worst thing eva iz dat dere's no GRAD NITE FOR CCHS! dat totally sucked..haiz...but i stilll nt sure bout goin 2 grad dis yr...cuz like e clique carn sit in 1 table...haiz...

*i am actually StudyiN!*

Santana feat. Michelle Branch
I'm Feeling You

Sometimes I imagine a world without
The most times I'm just so happy that I ever found you
It's the complicated web
That you weave inside my head
So much pleasure with such pain
Hopefully always, always stay the same

I'm feeling the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I'm riding the highs, I'm digging the lows
Cause at least I feel alive
I've never faced so many emotional days
But now I feel as good
I'm feeling you
I'm feeling you

You go and then I can finally breathe in
'Cause, baby, I know in the end you're never
Well, we're rarely ever sane
I drive you crazy and you just say
But your fire fills my soul
And it warms me up like no one knows

I'm feeling the way you cross my mind
And you save me in the knick of time
I'm riding the highs, I'm digging the lows
Cause at least I feel alive
I've never faced so many emotional days
But now I feel as good
I'm feeling you
I'm feeling you

Craig David
Don't Love You No More

For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately
you've been acting so cold (didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now

Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and then it's throwing the pan
But why are you making this drag on so long

I'm sick and tired of this silly games
Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more


dis song iz juz great....

JaCky blogged on 11:29 PM

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Watch Crazy 1st Love dis fridae ch u at 11.30...a realli nice show..mi fav korean movie..=)

JaCky blogged on 10:17 PM

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juz got dis urge 2 blog everydae...but den e urge wasnt strong enuff 2 push me 2 do so..todae kinda did..was juz deep in thoughts these daes..tinkin bout lotsa stuffs...nw dat could b hazardous..haha..

gp results was bad..real bad...a drop of 15 marks frm jct...datz like 3 grades? haha..i dun even noe wad i was doin durin prelims den..results r so sucky dat b4 i received e paper i knew it was gonna b somthing bad cuz bad things tend 2 happen all at once...but i wasnt as affected as daes a few daes bac...when i would certainly n conveniently welcome a drunk driver or sum killer litterer...i really wldnt mind den..e results kinda sparked everything off...n results was juz a spark n wasnt e underlyin causes...like i said...everything juz piles up...right nw...carn sae im feeling much better..perhaps i juz need sum1 hu can help me get outtta dis crap..

i tend 2 do realli useless stuff..like todae..i actually read up on Einstein theory of relativity e quantum physics n all dat jazz when it has nothing 2 do wif mi studies at all...it was realli intruiging though n im realli curious bout all these stuff...but at dis pt in time..perhaps i shld get down 2 proper revision already...i guess e time for feeling remorseful is over...n dis wake-up call is ringing louder in mi ears den ever...

one article talked about moving at e speed of light...it is said dat if 1 travels at e speed of light time wld slow down for u...n u age slower n all dat..n if u travel sufficiently fast enough...u could go bac in time...n hey...datz mi greatest wish..haha...2 travel nac in time..at present it seems impossible 2 do dat...im nt so sure abt e future though..im a physics amateur here n mayb datz y dere's no time machine present right nw as u cannot travel into e future but onli can into e past...i dno..juz some crapy guess...

every1 shld b given a chance i blieve...n by goin bac in time we can make sure e same mistake doesnt happen..we learn frm our mistakes but sometimes e consequences r juz too much 2 bear n dere might b no chance of making up watsoever..n so we shld go bac n nt repeat e mistake...but fact is time moves 4wrd n nt backwards...i realli wanna go bac bcause i wanna relive e moment...r eminiscing i blieve iz a moment of sadness..knowin v well u cannot find bac those times..haha..i wonder abt hw us humans can b so contradictin at times..i look 4wrd 2 e future..but i realli wanna go bac 2 e past...n dere r times dat u wish u had sum1 by ur side but den again u rather nt...i tink datz hw people feel sumtimes...

if i cld go bac...i wld briefly stop at e period around Oct2004..
den go bac 2 sec3 n experience e moments i had wif 3/4gr...e time i met royce n charlie..e times spent playin e skateboard in class n slpin in class n rushin for bball after sch..den i stop for a long time at e sec2 period..e time when i met mi best buddies like jas gh n zr...e frenship i blive will last all e way..n at dat time goin 2 sch iz more fun den anything else..for once in mi life i found dat sch is so fun 2 attend..so im gonna stop at 2hm for quite some while..datz oso e time when i was residing in avon park...e condo nt far frm where i live nw..i love dat hse e most..e view of e pool at night is juz so perfect..den i'll perhaps stop briefly at e period when we went for our china trip in sec1...havin ttk as mi roommate for dat trip was interestin...remembered we broke all e curfews n sneaked out 2 plae n got caught..hahaz..

nxt i'll stop for quite some time in primary sch...primary5-1 n 6-1..frens like ivan n weiling..though nw we seemed 2 hav got 2gether less...those times where we spent time playin hopscotch n badminton n diggin for worms n meetin at e playgrnd at 5pm everydae n caught fished in e big big drain...

den after dat i'll stop v long at primary 1 n 2...datz cause datz e time i spent everidae wif mi gu gu..or auntie..i duno dat in english..i realli miss her alot..laz wk when i visited her it juz brought bac lotsa memories..another of mi wish iz dat she'll outlive me...she took care of me for bout 5 yrs...from kindergarden 2 pri sch...n those were e most precious years of mi life..i love her cookin...her way of takin care of me..n her love for me...kallang bahru was realli like mi 'kampong' of mi younger years..i spent those times like most children do..playin in e playgrnd..goin downstairs in e tiny blue uniform to PAP..i oso spent time throwin seeds into e kallang river..n collectin saga seeds oso..listenin 2 songs like out of e blue(michael learns 2 rock)..top of e world...den chinese songs like wo men zhe yi ban..e aiyoyo song etc...realli threw me into e embrace of e past again ...everything juz floods bac...

after all those trips....once again..i'll move bac 2 e period of oct 2004 n let time freeze dere...n let dat time b a never-ending looping tape dat replays n replays..

mi nose iz gettin realli runny...duno hw many trips i made 2 e toilet for dis entry..din expect dis entry 2 turn so emotional...im sorry for e borin content dat looks like an autobiography..

realli worried bout mi dad's health...wish dat he stays healthy 4eva..

mi gd frens n havin their bdaes soon..ivan frm f4 bdae iz on oct13...n another ivan of mi pri sch is on oct14...den mine iz at 15oct....v coincidental huhz..haha...honestly...dis yr's bdae will nv b betta den laz yr's...in fact...i tink it will b cold n lonely..like e 16th bdae..i juz aint keen 2 grow older anymore...life gets worse after 16 i tink..

was watchin e tian guo de jie ti juz nw...n e ending dere's a phrase like dis..'i wanna b ur fren...let's b frens 4eva shall we? Lovers may part but frenship will last for eternity....' i realli like dis phrase...it serves for me as some sort of a small comfort...but hey...we blieve in nt love for eternity but were once in love? i blieve in e former though..datz y im realli happy n touched 2 c realli old couples holdin hands n walkin slowly alongside each other even though their hair is white..mi neighbours are old couples...n i realise hw happy dey are everydae...i tink dat iz realli realli cool..

i do sound kinda philosophical n dreamy todae...

hope mi mood improves ovr e nxt few daes..

JaCky blogged on 11:48 PM

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