itz counting down 3 daes 2 hols ending..

sch's reopening...datz realli sarks alot..cuz itz been a great hol n i nv wan it 2 end...n perhaps itz bcuz itz such a tiring yr n dat makes e hols much much sweeter..juz dread goin bac 2 sch nw duno wads gonna happen 2 me nxt wk..time shld stop nw or e hols b neverending...hahaz..as if dat will happen..=I

nt feeling too good lately..

xmas countdown had been great fun..although itz will e usual gang of e 3 of us..gh n zr n me...we all had fun..wenta orchard..met up wif gh b4 goin 2 meet zr who waited for us for quite long..we bought tix for Kungfu..dun mind sitting in at e 1st row cuz heard e show iz real farnie..n 2 get tix at dat time was kinda lucky le..anyway...was laughin thruout e whole show..haha..can still rmb e farnie scenes..zr n gh bside me was laughin like mad man oso..i gonna sae dat stephen chow iz such a genius n dis show had 2 b mi farniest show of e yr..

we had trouble crossin roads cuz e crowd was Huge..played wif gh's fonetakin pics on e wae..hmm...we thot it wld 2 cool n fun 2 buy santa's hat so each of us got 1..dere was not once dat we walk without body contact wif ppl cuz itz so squeezy..we walked back n forth e stretch of road btwn shaw n cini 2 join in e fun...it kinda feel like it was snowing wif e sprays...we were unarmed n thus got spray by lotsa ppl..so we got ourselves armed wif e snowy spray..so we sprayed lotsa strangers..dere was dis gal dat was frm tj n we sprayed alot at each other..hahaz...even cars were nt spared e sprayin..saw 1 ferrari gettin sprayed..e whole orchard road was crazy..

we walked all e wae frm orchard 2 esplanade..itz a kinda long walk thru e quiet streets at 2am..we had supper bside e merlion..dere were quite alot of ppl dere restin after e fun dey had..so we sat down n chatted quite abit..me n gh were talkin bout lotsa stuffs dat we dun normally tok about...zr dozed off..it was really breezy n tranquil at dat time..we took e 1st train hm..hmm..1st time i took e 1st train..so i slpt frm 7 to 3 on xmas dae...

had dinner at seafood restaurant bside esplanade wif mi dad n bro n uncle's family..dey came ovr frm msia so treated us for dinner...dinner was so so sumptuous.i actually ate a whole crab n lotsa other stuffs..yum..den we headed off for nite safari..hmm...i've only went dere once b4 n i carn rmb wat it was like..so itz was quite cool 2 c e animals at nite..itz a special experience afterall..

dere was a 2hm gathering on sundae! been a long time since we had one..we had lunch at swensens at bugis..n so we crapped..jas n zy got cool bags at bugis street..gh gt a shirt..sum shopping goin on..den e guys wenta parkwae 2 plae lan n had dinner..

had a buffet dinner wif e gang on tues cuz itz mi turn 2 treat cuz itz mi bdae..itz nt e actual dae cuz it was pushed till nw..we ate lotsa nice food till we were so full dat we carn walk properly..hahaz..after dat met up wif wl n ivan near mi place..we actually walked till macpherson n bac cuz we walk n sang n chatted...quite fun..den dey stayed ovr at mi place...hmm..dis was nt planned at all...we played ps2 all nite..bomberman was great fun! i woke up nt feeling too good..but considerin dat itz been a long time since i fell sick despite nt slping for bout 5 daes dis hols n walkin in e rain for sum daes itz gd le..

life can b so so vulnerable..e tsunami dat hit e whole world..nw..itz 800000 plus n counting..dere's realli a wrench in the heart looking at e news...at e bodies floatin on e water..at e injured ppl waitin for treatment..n e faces of ppl who cried ovr their loved ones..i can only stare at e figures in disbelief...prays dat all will b fine soon...

itz 31dec nw..e dae i've been dreading it 2 arrive..

quite alot of things hav been goin on thru mi head recently..lotsa thinking to do..

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JaCky blogged on 1:28 AM

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worked again these few daes..have already chatted wif most of mi colleagues dere so kinda noe dem betta..felt so beat yest..slpt on e sofa...itz e 1st time i slpt in e living rm alone..perhaps im juz so tired dat i din even bother walkin 2 mi bed le bahz..

got kinda pissed lately cuz some ppl sae im irresponsible n stuffs...i can understand ppl's situation but carn dey understand mine? n so i rceived an ultimatum todae...cool..anyway im already tinking lately perhaps i shld juz quit sch n go 2 poly or wad..cuz i dun wanna go bac 2 sch at all...nt e slightest bit..at nite..b4 slping..dere's juz so many thoughts in mi head..even death..yea..i guess things hav gotten so bad for me now..im prob goin thru e worst patch in mi life nw...itz juz so unbearable...juz feeling so restless n..dead...somehow life has no meaning for me nw..something feel like letting go of everythin..but of cuz im in a clear state of mind 2 tink of e consequences nw..

hmm..ivan n wl came over on fri for a stayover..we crapped at e playgrnd wif rachel who happened 2 b downstairs at dat time too..den we watch final destination2 b4 slping..

i actually drank a whole bottle of beer! n downstairs summore...din wan 2 initially but ivan tried asking n we got a bottle each..was kinda shockin n ppl were staring..haha...do like e adults do..jie4 jiu3 xiao1 chou2..

christmas iz coming but i dun realli hav e festive mood..

JaCky blogged on 11:10 PM

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gh

been real tired after working ovr e wkend..we had 2 stand for almost 10hrs each dae serving customers dat i felt it was such a joy 2 sit down when i got hm..but e food e 2 daes was great! had abalone n sharksfin..even e canteen food was yummy..itz juz nice workin dere..

went swimming on thurs! zr gh jasper n me went..jurong dere..e train ride 2 jurong was long but passed real fast cuz we were havin fun even on e train..crapped n listened 2 music n played wif hp etc..we sat down bside e door which seldoms open..ppl were staring but we din care..

wave pool was shiok! we played truth or dare dere n e 1 who lost hav 2 ans qns or overturn..we had a float each..had a race at e lazy pool..jacuzzi was relaxing..oh...saw an artificial rainbow..cuz dere is a mist producing spray resulting in a rainbow..v beautiful..went 2 play lan after dat..den had dinner at 11 b4 takin taxi 2 mi place..e taxi driver was real farnie cuz he actually wind down e window when we were passing past geylang n shouted 2 a woman if she's free 2nite..we all laughed..weird driver dere..

hmm..we played daidee for 3 hrs b4 goin down for supper...den played summore daidee n ps2 till break of dawn..jasper n zr was realli realli farnie dat i laughed till stomach pain..jasper was askin zr 2 wake up n said realli ridiculous stuffs..zr frustrated till he shouted nonsense also as he iz in a v drowsy state..half aslp those kind..he shouted still he went off pitch..hahaz..me n gh were laughing like mad..we played sum nice bball match later den all of us went hm for a peaceful n undisturbed sleep...

played bball with ttk n co. on mon..poly life has reopened for them..n i guess itz tough after a long break...sumhow i totally do nt hav e goin bac 2 sch mood rite nw..carn imagine sch life startin..itz like totally break awae frm e horrors of sch life already since hols started..was almost playin everydae nt touching a single hmwk yet..i wan dis 2 continue forever!

i didnt mean 2...

haiz..

JaCky blogged on 1:28 AM

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Ryan Cabrera
Title: True

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I don't look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
Its true
Cuz I'm afraid to know the answers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waiting
This is true

You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
Its true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

a;rites..dis iz gonna b one of my fav songs cuz itz so touching n realli beautiful..relate? hmm..

itz been a up n down wk..hmm dere r alwaes up n downs in life anyways..juz been feeling realli sad dis past few daes but played hard 2 forget it..tried 2 engross myself in davinci's code as well as ps2 games n bball todae..

last sat had usual parkwae outing but in e end ttk n zr came ovr n stayed at mi place...played games all nite..went downstairs for supper n juz chatted..we slpt when e sun iz rising..den woke up erly 2 plae bball...was realli tired after dat..den dere's orientation games meeting at my place..hafiz ivan n roys came ovr..dey started out by playin ps2 games b4 gettin down 2 real games work..ttk n zr n me was in e rm resting n chatted..talked bout everythin..e 2 daes juz passed real fast..

haha...was pretty proud of myself on mon..managed 2 whipped up dinner for ange as well as mi bro..which dey said was nt bad..=)..din slp e previous nite cuz had 2 make pres..n yeapz..gave ange her pres n dinner dat nite...mini bdae celebration..den headed hm..

rotted at hm for 2 daes b4 meeting zr n gh on thurs..we went 2 spore poly 2 check gh's poly out...n he needed 2 hand in sum stuffs..e place iz realli realli big..gt almost everythin dere..shopped at queensway b4 goin 2 town..itz like thurs but e crowd was huge dere..dinner at delifrance was dlicious..den had supper at e kinda like roadside stalls opposite centerpoint...haha...we realli can eat man..had fun dat dae..

been feeling realli low n sad..i can lie on bed for 2 hrs without fallin aslp..few daes ago i can actually hear e sunrise n birds chirping n i was still awake..haiz..=(

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JaCky blogged on 11:09 PM

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