pourquoi? pourquoi? pourquoi?

dat means why? in french...taken frm e pictorial bk by jimmy..i luv dat bk...realli nice n meaningful...tok abt life..many questions dat leaves us dumbfounded...many questions dat cannot b answered..many meaningful questions dat we shld ask ourselves at times..sum thoughts dat he drawn n written out r e same of wad i thot..din tink dat sum1 would tink in such a wae oso..=s

ive been slacking these daes...din go sch for e past 2 daes..on mon i went for a few lessons...skipped a few lessons..no mood 2 go sch le..haiz...

went fishing wif wk on tues...we bought a realli amateur fishing line n hook...juz these wif no bait...went off 2 ecp n borrowed sum bait frm e fisherman dere..we fished..1 hr...no fish...2hr....yawn..still no fish...den gave up le...haha...e fishes dere v smart...keep biting 2 our bait den ran off..if not bit pieces by pieces..can feel e yanking of e line...everitime i pulled it swam away...wk had no luck either..hmm...we realli kinda disgraceful in front of e fisherman dere..=i..

bought sum fries 2 go wk hse 2 fry...he bought a chicken...we were kinda hungry..ate at his hse...watched tv...played games...b4 heading hm..

todae juz slacked big time at hm...woke up...eat...sit down n watch tv...played ps2...eat...watch tv...den come online..argh...wasted e dae awy..

lost...datz wad im feelings...din go 2 sch...guilty...wad if realli lucky get into vjc den i carn cope? lost all interest in studies liaoz..sianzed..go sch oso slp..like got no aim in life...i wanna go 2 e radio academy...still pondering over dat now cuz itz ex..if i go sajc i wun regret i slacked..feeling so uncertain bout things...haiz...

JaCky blogged on 11:58 PM

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itz e release of e o lvl results on fridae..e dae when ppl lost hope or in seventh heaven...e dae when ppl cry for diff reasons..e dae when emotions overwhelmed them...1 of e most impt dae for most in this 16yrs...well...i feel quite numb on dat dae..b4 e release of results i wasnt xcatly nervouse...onli a slight tint of it..could feel ppl feelin nervous on dat dae..

i got a 9...a single digit 2 mi surprise...i thot i'll get 12..im happy for 1 thing...i got an a2 for eng..i realli hoped 2 do well in this subj..=)..other den dat...i wasnt ecstatic or wat..e rapturous n poignant ppl were v contrasting..e sad feeling of other ppl affected me more..was like...this iz a minor stage of our lives...where we go to or wad we get shld b fate bahz..accept it n move on wld b betta..cry out loud if dere iz a nid 2 but cannot lose hope..i noe jas n others hu cried..haiz..

met many teachers hu i thanked them for their hard work..dey've been realli great...made me miss sec sch life even more...remained dere at e audi for quite sum time toking b4 leaving..wenta wk hse 2 change b4 meeting zr jasper dey all for lunch..wenta play lan afterdat...i din play for yrs le cuz din realli like it but once in a long long while iz not bad..den wenta play bball...fun n tiring..

went for e mardi gras at tjc at nite..i din catch performances juz walked around n tok wif frens...we sat down at table toking crap...haha..den came e funny part...played zhong ji mi ma..i was 1st 2 tio...suay...had 2 ask a gal near e table for e no. but she knew we were playin truth or dare so i asked her anyhow type a no...accomplished..nxt iz jasper..he had 2 stand under a lamp post n ask passer by y here so brite...haha i suggested this lame forfeit..we luff like mad..nxt 1 tio iz roy i tink...he had 2 stand up on e table n shout I Luv TJC!! haha...xia suay ehz...e funniest part iz zr de forfeit..when tio him he had 2 ask a guy for his hp no.....haha...v v funny..we luff till crazy..cuz itz erxin asking a guy stranger for no...v weird...hahaz...

me tony zr stayed over at jasper hse after dat...played cards..played com games...had lotsa fun..slpt at bout 4...woke at at 8! forced 2 wake up 2 play bball...argh...so unlike me..

i've been rather slack last wk...pon sch on thurs...went out wif wk..met up at nn...i was late so took cab...haiz..wenta e aerospace thingy for trade invitation...on e wae dere den we realised dat nid business identification sorta thingy n nid 2 wear formally..i was in 3/4 jeans n wk was in jeans...reach dere le find ppl in tux or black pants...we din even try n left..wasted time..had lunch at tm...den wenta his hse 2 read comics...fell aslp dere..we met up wif nat deb dey all at parkwae b4 goin 2 ecp...we didnt noe wad else 2 do...enjoyed e breeze dere...watching e waves move swiftly...kinda like an illusion...beautiful...however...at times like this...sets many ppl tinking bout sad things..me n wk sent nat hm after dat cuz she wasnt feeling gd..

well...im gonna try for vjc...if not sajc...hope mi future wunt b bleak..hope everi1 makes e rite choice..=)

JaCky blogged on 12:02 AM

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