todae got bac prelim results...muz sae dat it was bad...real real bad...tink i flunked math n mi geog don do well...sumhow guess i took e results realli hard...cuz itz like 2nd laz chance oso use up liao...at dis stage still gettin dis kinda results..normally wunt realli care much or b affected by mi results de but dis time round it hit me hard..real hard...durin lessons todae realli felt low...went hm n felt helpless...hopeless..watever -less dere iz...at dat time realli wanted a solid rock wall n plates or sumthing so i can throw e plates at e wall v hard 2 vent frustrations..i did study for geog n it turned out lidat...haiz..looks like 3As for a lvls seems so far away frm mi reach n not a possibility anymore..

dere's dis thing called e breaking point. e limit. e boundary. e point when e volcano erupts. not in e sense of anger though. a release of pressure from all dat accumulated strain. and studies onli has a small role it e build up of dis..juz felt like ive endured lotsa things..perhaps more den ppl noe of..mayb im juz experiencing a slump in mi life...i wonder when e boom will come..tink dat e results todae has juz push me closer 2 dat limit..n when it eventually does..i duno wad will happen..hmm...

but i guess most of us r nt happy wif their results...itz juz how we handle dem...n i tink im nt doin too well in dis aspect..

stairway 2 heaven( some korean show on ch8) iz a nice show..but it sucha sad show it juz furthur brings down e mood..haha.

looks like i onli noe hw 2 plae hard..n nt study hard enuff...met up wif jasper n zr at mpcc for our usual stuffs like for 3 daes after exams ended...den met up wif clique on sat...we watched one more chance..some spore production..which i thot dat wasnt worth watchin at 1st but after e show e hilarious part of e show had some saving grace..played pool n arcade oso..which i havent done in a realli long time..dinner at fin was nt too bad...oso celebrating roys's bdae at e same time...dat juz leaves ivan n me in e 17-year-old bracket...after which we took a realli long walk 2 esplanade den e merlion n we drank when we were dere...took taxi hm wif yh 2 end a tiring but fun dae..

went hm todae n stoned..watched tv..played games...took a nap...watch tv again...n juz had a cup noodle e whole dae..tough dae i had...at dis point in time...carn sae im a optimist..expecting results 2 b as bad or worse den e results i received todae...can dere b miracles of miracles in dis 6 wks? i seriously wonder..

will tml b a better dae? im hoping dat tml nv comes...tomorrows nv hold much meanings for me anyway..argh..i sound so distraught..=(

i realli thnk her for e motivation i received...but e results still turned out bad...im realli sorry..

JaCky blogged on 11:04 PM

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